My good friend Amy has given me some motivation to start writing in this again. She is also working on having a baby, she didn't have a transplant, but her road hasn't been easy either. It is so nice to have someone that understands what I am going thru, even though I wish she didn't and could have had her baby a long time ago.
I haven't really been trying to think about babies too much. I find myself getting jealous of anyone that is expecting. It seems so easy for everyone. I don't want to be bitter and that is what I am becoming. I am sick of saying the standard "we're having fun trying" and "it will happen when the time is right". How patient can one be?
Next month I go for my 5 year transplant check-up. 5 years! Holy smokes! I can't believe it has been so long. Anyway, we will talk to the doctors about all our problems. They are refering me to a specialist at the University of Michigan. Someone who knows all about transplants and pregnancy. So, we'll see.
Bitterness aside life is good. Me and Dan are great, my family is healthy and I have great friends...blah, blah, blah, I WANT A BABY! Just kidding, life's good.
